Sweet 4

Our 5th child Evan is 4 today. All of our children are special gifts from God, but Evan tugs at us in a special way.

When Evan was born I was being induced because I was out of amniotic fluid. There were no other complications expected. But when he was born, there were a few problems, which I won’t blog about specifically. I was not allowed to nurse him, and we had to travel away from home 2 hours without our 4 other children, to UK Children’s Hospital. For me, it was painful not being allowed to do the normal mom instinct things. I couldn’t hold him all day, or feed him at all. My milk was coming in, and it was painful. I had to go to the pump room, and sit alone. I had to leave the NICU Unit to use the bathroom, which was often for a new mommy, and come back in, ask permission to see him again, rescrub and make my way to his Unit. I cried a lot. Rick was tough, but I cried. After his surgery he was hooked up to tubes and having all sorts of tests. All in all, he was healthy and full term. I think the hardest part was knowing when we left, there were many babies left behind who would not be coming home for a long time. Some, not at all.

I saw an ambulance today, and it took me back to when one carried our little baby away from us and so many questions were ahead. After 2 surgeries Evan is a healthy 4 year old, although he has a few small things he will have to deal with throughout his life.

The things that have seemed the hardest to go through as parents, in the end I think make us closer to and more thankful for our children. God hasn’t always chosen us to take an easy path in this life. I don’t always agree with God chooses. I can’t fight Him though, He is God after all, and God has a plan.

 

 Rom 8:28  And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

 

Happy Birthday Evan!